Ramble Me Colorful

Alone TogetherFall Out Boy

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 14:06:39 -0400

Alone Together
Fall Out Boy

Any Other WayWe the Kings

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 14:03:40 -0400

Any Other Way
We the Kings

#operationwritehome

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:23:08 -0400

#operationwritehome

Card Party for #operationwritehome!

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 22:37:24 -0400

Card Party for #operationwritehome!

This is an actual piece of gift-wrapping in a well-known...

Wed, 12 Jun 2013 20:47:33 -0400

This is an actual piece of gift-wrapping in a well-known department store… what.

This is such a quirky, fun playlist! Make sure you check out the...

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 01:22:00 -0400

This is such a quirky, fun playlist!

Make sure you check out the drinks that these songs accompany on Tastemade’s “Thirsty For” playlist.

Swing Life AwayRise Against

Sun, 09 Jun 2013 01:27:00 -0400

Swing Life Away
Rise Against

Back from her trip, my mother brought me a gift. It’s a...

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 22:35:44 -0400

Back from her trip, my mother brought me a gift. It’s a scrapbook kept by 2 girls over 100 years ago!

In other news, I've created a music page.

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 01:49:36 -0400

In other news, I've created a music page.:

This is a running playlist of all the music shared on and loved by this blogger. You can also find more of what I like on my Soundcloud profile.

Something Happened

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 01:06:33 -0400

So, apparently about a month ago I received my first few pieces of real Internet hate.

They were comments on a random video I made last summer with my best friend Stephanie. We discovered the secret menu of Starbucks and decided to test it out.

It was not a great day, I didn’t look great and the lighting was terrible throughout the video. But it wasn’t a serious video, it was a random thing that I didn’t really give much thought to.

But it ended up being a semi-free-for-all on my weight, my face and my car, for some reason. And if I’m being completely honest, I was more offended by the comment on my car than by the ones on my weight.

These comments were made more than a month ago, but I didn’t discover them until last night, which really speaks to the filtering system of the Youtube inbox.

However, just a few days ago two more people commented on that video.

And they stuck up for me. They stood up to the trolling haters and they don’t even know me.

I can’t tell you all how happy that made me. These two girls stood up to five misogynistic, vanity-driven men in support of the idea that all bodies are beautiful and that no one deserves to be told to go kill themselves.

I admit, some of the comments cut deep, like the man who told me to “die bitch,” but the fact that there are people out there who are willing to stand up and say something, lessened the blows considerably.

I expected to get hate when I started doing this thing. But the fact that it was on such an insignificant video (which I have now deleted for my own sanity) doesn’t really make sense to me.

I thought about this a lot today. I woke up with the hate on my mind and I still didn’t know how I was going to deal with it.

And it really helped me think about the situation in its entirety. Instead of getting upset and angry, instead of saying “Fuck you, fuck the the internet, fuck Youtube and fuck this life,” instead of throwing my computer out the window and curling up in the dark - I was able to overcome what could have been a devastating outcome.

It made me realize just how much progress I have made toward body love and making peace with who I am.

And then I did what I always do when I don’t feel too attractive or happy. I blasted some soul-affirming music that makes you want to sway your hips and mess with your hair and just love yourself for being alive.

And I almost full-out cried because I realized how strong I am.

It re-affirmed my belief that I am beautiful, damn it.

Maybe I could stand to lose a little weight and dress a little better, but despite all of these things - I am beautiful.

I am a beautiful, strong woman with ambition and a voice and you can’t break that.

Social reality will never break me.

I love my life and I plan to live it in love with myself.

Love and Smiles.

a-motherfucking-goblin: I know girls who are trying to fit into...

Thu, 06 Jun 2013 19:03:41 -0400

a-motherfucking-goblin:

I know girls who are trying to fit into the social norm
like squeezing into last year’s prom dress
i know girls who are low rise, mac eyeshadow, and binge drinking
i know girls that wonder if they’re disaster and sexy enough to fit in
i know girls who are fleeing bombs from the mosques of their skin
playing russian roulette with death; it’s never easy to accept
that our bodies are fallible and flawed
but when do we draw the line?
when the knife hits the skin?
isn’t it the same thing as purging,
because we’re so obsessed with death,
some women just have more guts than others
the funny thing is women like us don’t shoot
we swallow pills, still wanting to be beautiful at the morgue,
still proceeding to put on make-up,
still hoping that the mortician finds us fuckable and attractive
we might as well be buried with our shoes,
and handbags and scarves, girls
we flirt with death everytime we etch a new tally mark
into our skin
i know how to split my wrists like a battlefield too
but the time has come for us to
reclaim our bodies
our bodies deserve more than to be war-torn and collateral,
offering this fuckdom as a pathetic means to say,
“i only know how to exist when i’m wanted”
girls like us are hardly ever wanted you know
we’re used up and sad and drunk and
perpetually waiting by the phone for someone to pick up
and tell us that we did good
You did good.
( i know i am because i said am, my body is home)
so try this
take your hands over your bumpy love body naked
and remember the first time you touched someone
with the sole purpose of learning all of them
touched them because the light was pretty on them
and the dust in the sunlight danced the way your heart did
touch yourself with a purpose
your body is the most beautiful royal
fathers and uncles are not claiming your knife anymore
are not your razor, no
put the sharpness back
lay your hands flat and feel the surface of scarred skin
i once touched a tree with charred limbs
the stump was still breathing
but the tops were just ashy remains,
i wonder what it’s like to come back from that
sometimes i feel a forest fire erupting from my wrists
and the smoke signals sent out are the most beautiful things
i’ve ever seen
love your body the way your mother loved your baby feet
and brother, arm wrapping shoulders, and remember,
this is important:
you are worth more than who you fuck
you are worth more than a waistline
you are worth more than beer bottles displayed like drunker artifacts
you are no less valuable as a size 16, than a size 4
you are no less valuable as a 32A than a 36C,
you are worth more than any naked body could proclaim
in the shadows, more than a man’s whim
or your father’s mistake
your sexiness is defined by concentric circles within your wood;
wisdom
you are a goddamn tree stump with leaves sprouting out:
reborn

"I burnt down a house of depression I painted over murals of gray-scale And it was hard to rewrite my..."

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 02:52:31 -0400

“I burnt down a house of depression
I painted over murals of gray-scale
And it was hard to rewrite my life into one I wanted to live
But today I want to live.”

- Kait Rokowski

Today will be a good day.

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 02:47:00 -0400

Today will be a good day.

melobathegreat: Kait Rokowski - “New Insults” On our first...

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 02:27:55 -0400

melobathegreat:

Kait Rokowski - “New Insults”

On our first date, I warned him. I told him, I’m a bit of a crazy person, but I’m not really interested in changing that shit. I’m not compatible with a Zooey Deschanel rom-com – because I actually love myself more than I can imagine loving somebody else. I am a stubborn mess. I am spilled milk and crying about it. I am the captain of an ever-sinking ship. He laughed. Ha! and told me, that’s what they all say. You have no idea what you want – like I was trapped in the tower of my own devise and he was scratching at the stone saying: Girl – small thing, let down your hair! You just haven’t found the right cock to complete you! I’m going to save you sooooo hard! Dude, I would tell you to go fuck yourself, but I don’t wanna wish something as awesome as sex upon you. I would call you an asshole, but less shit comes out of an asshole. You, my friend, are such a specific breed of dicknut that I had to invent new insults just to accommodate how much I hate you. I hate you so much I hope you feel like you’re about to sneeze for the rest of your life! I hate you so much I hope your dick gets a leech on it like that scene in ‘Stand By Me’! I would enjoy it if you were one of three people a year who went to jail for pirating music! I hate you so much I hope you’re forced to suck my ex-boyfriend’s dick for seventy-two hours while he talks about how The Wire is the best show you’ve never seen! I hate you so much I hope you have a popcorn kernel stuck in the back of your throat forever! I hate you so much I hope you fall in love with a strong woman – one who loves herself more than you. I hate you so much I hope you know where you stand, that she will never stray from her path with her dizzy pinwheel heart. I hate you so much I hope you marry her, and I think about the way you treated me, about the night you called me manic, insulted me to my face, and still insisted you pay for dinner. I hate you so much I hope you regret it. I hope you kiss your loved one full on the mouth and feel foolish that she is the vision of spinning and wonder; she – with a hard heart and a sharp tongue; she – with a blinding bright future would ever change for someone as undeserving as you.

Damn it, I love this girl.

I just started watching Supernatural. Why? Why did I do this? I already have no life. Oh well,...

Mon, 03 Jun 2013 18:48:01 -0400

I just started watching Supernatural.

Why? Why did I do this?

I already have no life.

Oh well, summer is summer.

;)

“Happy Birthday, Marilyn” #nofilter - it really is...

Sat, 01 Jun 2013 19:32:38 -0400

“Happy Birthday, Marilyn” #nofilter - it really is that bright #chalkartfestival #downtowndenver

Absolutely amazing #chalkart in #downtowndenver...

Sat, 01 Jun 2013 19:10:17 -0400

Absolutely amazing #chalkart in #downtowndenver #chalkartfestival

New favorite place? I think so!

Wed, 29 May 2013 14:16:49 -0400

New favorite place? I think so!

Follow My FeetUnlikely Candidates

Tue, 28 May 2013 17:50:43 -0400

Follow My Feet
Unlikely Candidates

This is what it’s all about #TerritoryDays...

Mon, 27 May 2013 13:55:39 -0400

This is what it’s all about #TerritoryDays #ColoradoSprings #MemorialDay